These few days i was damn shagged!!! But i lucky someone pei mii talk luh...work was stressful becos all the customers very picky. SAPI luh!!!

Tis morning i worked BRUNCH. Quite normal..had several customers as usual...messed up an order as usual..then something unusual happened, recieved an sms frm my class advisor Mr Chew. He told us tat tml Dover ITE students don hav to report to sch as a fire broke out at Dover ITE tis morning ruinning the sch's staffroom...lucky no one was hurt in the fire...but...y don the whole sch kena burnt dwn?Test on wed leh....ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


My test gone....i knew it myself..mayb will retain tis yr...im so useless...






I'm useless..cos i cant giv up on euu

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Went Far East Pllaza eith Adrian and Cai Xiang todae aftr boring sch. Alot of gurls sia..but nvr tak number..cannt tank...cos my heart with someone else...haix...we went to The Hair Salon cos Cai Xiang and Adrian wans to cut hair as they were both barred frm sch due to long hair..diaos...


Cai Xiang go cut Luo Zhi Xiang de hair style...he be idiot lorh...lols...in the end still keeep saying ugly leh.
Aftr their haircut...we went over to a shop which i fogt the name le...Adiaan chose a pair of shoes...which is $119 at first then aftr discount is $95...siao..rich ppl...

Then head over to Penisula plaza to buy jeans...bought a pair of jeans...is ex de lorh...dulannnnnn

tired liaos...go slp lo...





Euu took my heart and soul away...leaving mii nth but pain.

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Happy Belated Birthday AJ !!!

Ytd AJ de borthday. He keep asking mii send him hermit crab in facebook.lols!!! Maggie bought a small cake for him frm JP. He was lik touched....He made us drinks...in the end mii n Maggie keep playing 5-10 till i sibei seh...waited for transport then homed.

Sch was as boring as usual...failed my E-tech test..lowest in class...CUI!

Sibei no mood!!


Thinking of euu everyday, everytime,everywhere....

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Ytd went Lanlab with Sbester.meeing Chee Pei there.Weiliang on the way frm town.Aftr awhile Chee Pei went off to fetch his gf frm church.Weiliang arrived shortly...he watched mii n Sbester play DOTA for awhile.Then we went for pool ltr on.Ah Hao joined us.He keep telling us tat downstairs at the computering side gt chio bu.But seriously...im nt interested.only interested in her....At last Ah Hao keep asking mii help him tak number for him.I go tak lo..i went dwn with Sbester..He damn "brother" lorh...went dwn with mii but when i walked over to the gurl he secretly retreated...when i asked the gurl i saw him going back up the stairs.LOL!!! Brother siol.....lols anyway..heres my conversation with the gurl...


Mii: Hi..my frend woould lik to hav ur number...can?
Her: No.
Mii: Be frends luh...y cannt?
Her: No.
Mii: Aiyo...be frends with him luh...he very nice de...he very wen rou de...lols
Her: No.




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Todae as per normal, went to sch...then aftr tat went mit Ze Lin,played card Big 2.One card 5 push ups...i  almost died lorh...i did more than 200 push ups.*CUI!* Ze Lin, Cai Xiang they all keep laughing at mii...cos i MVP for doing the most push ups todae.

Was abit dulan jus nw.cos They played with my wallet n ring.Wallet gt ur photos. The ring is our cpl ring.which left only one side. Ur side euu threw away le mah?haix...

Went WM to mit Chee Pei...then rushed home cos working ltr.

Was late for work, Damien (Sapi) and Ronand the new guy were alrdy there. Xavier( Manager) asked mii to follow him go do car drop. So,we took the flyers...hop on his bike and went to our first stop...Bukit Timah Plaza.distribute finish le jiu go WM de carpark le. Chanced upon my ex sec teacher...Mrs Valerie Loh..Chatted awhile then i continued distributing...Minutes ltr...Xavier came to look for mii...he told mii we are going back to Gastro Bar le...

Travelled back to Gastro Bar..the Sapi and Ronand was lik bored..cos nt much customers so nth nuch to do.
Sapi went home at 9pm...mii and Ronand was asked to punch out at 10. On my way towards the exit, i saw Sapi walking in...he left and hr ago so y is he back?In the end tat Sapi forgotten to tak his bag along with him when he left. When he went in to get his bag, i was outside teaching May (Vice-Supervisor) with much enthusiam how to say "Sapi".Sapi de face turned balck...oya..his alrdy black liaos...hahas...then i took a bus home...bathed,drink soup,blog...now going to bed soon le...


Saw Jun Yin dumb mei de msn pm.. " Im afraid to love..."  is tat wat euu think too? For mii i think mine shld mii  "Don't wanna love anybody but euu..."





Waiting for the day euu say euu love mii too. Knowing euu are happy is enough.But i knw im greedy.For euu





Still Waiting....100308-0216  DDD:

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Todae woke up at 6am then at 7.15am go dwn tak bus to 2 stops ahead to mit Cai Xiang.Tired n slpy lorh.
When mii and Cai Xiang is on bus 74 Mr Chew msged us notifying us tat he was on mc then the 8am lesson is cancelled.Lesson will start at 10.15am.He damn zai lorh. We 7.30am in bus le he 7.45am msg us.lols..its lik sooooo early horhhhhh~~~nvm...reached sch.suay de nt only us.gt--- Jun Fu, Wen Long, Yao Ming, Wei Shan and Johnny(卓大圣人). Aftr awhile they went to the library only Jun Fu stayed with us. We sit there slack slack slack then i dragged them to the library. In the library i jitao lie on the sofa lik my bed lik tat jiu fell aslp le.


Had free period.cos we lazy to do the installatiion...hahas...then at 12pm we had lunch. Tot of her for awhile.then we went back for lesson at 1.15pm...yay the air-con they fix it le.finally luh...in the end Cai Xiang fell aslp (he keep saying he want to study for test de). Then at 3pm we had a short break. Aftr tat we sat in the room slack and play. At 5pm we were dismissed. All of us went straight hm.


On the way home.mii n Cai Xiang suddenly talked abt our past relationships. He recalled of Jesslyn. Im still thinking of Venice. We both agreed tat no hope le.but we can be idiots. We don mind waiting. He more heng lorh. at least his ex still will contact him sometimes...mine?nvm...im jus a stranger to her. lik  the air in India.



Its ur birthday soon in 8 days. Do euu get my wishes? I wun be there with euu to celebrate ur birthday le.




My heart cracked when euu were gone. My emotions faded with euu. My everything went missing becos of euu.

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I don nid anyone de care.I only nid my brothers n sisters and most importantly Venice de care. I'll risk everything for them. Those buay ge yen de lai. Don go disturb my besties.



ALL I NEED IN LIFE IS YOU. Such beautiful eyes. Such cheering laughter. Such a loveable person. But she cannot be mine.

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Tis few days nvr post anything cos nth for mii to post mah.

Sch still as boring as bfr...work is still as busy as bfr...life is still as miserable as bfr...

I felt tat tis yr de mii changed alot all i can feel is tat i changing frm guai kia to pai kia le.
Im getting angry every now and then.wat is wrong with mii?

Left eyelid twitched whole day.Something bad is gotta happen.And it did! Adrian was beaten at Chinatown todae.Poor guy.Swollen everywhere...on his birthday somemore...someday i will mak them pay.


Adrian get well soon...aftr euu get well le we go Chinatown hav "fun".
I have nth to lose anyway.死就死!No one will care anyway.


Not a day passed without mii thinking of euu.

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Todae sian luh.Bored bored bored.i still owe AJ a bottle of beer.lols...

Todae went sch slpt abit worked abit.talked abit...then at break mii,Cai Xiang and Adrian went canteen eat. Saw Wen Jie there.He told mii he graduating in April.Gratz. Aftr eating we jiu go off le cos gt donno wat talk and we don wan to go..boring. Saw PinkLady on the way out of sch...lols.

Slacked outside sch with them. Adrian keep asking mii n Cai Xiang to go over to his birthday party at 12 Elements @ Boat Quay tml. But mii and Cai Xiang tml gt schedule.tats y we rejected him.then he very persistant leh.keep nagging...keep asking then we pek cek and told him if we gt time aftr work sure go. But the problem is i don think we would go...Both mii and Cai Xiang broke liaos...Our pay gone.nb!

Going to work ltr...7pm to 11 pm..hope can extend my schedule.Have been bugging Xavier and AJ to giv mii more schedule.cos i nid more money to cover my heavy expenses!!!!!  Hahas.





Missing euu everyday, do euu feel it?

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I Will Wait.Wait till 100910-0213. At least give mii some respond leh.Let mii knw euu r doing well.Tats all I could only ask for.

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Haix...fell sick liaos...nt only mii...but Adrian, Cai Xiang and Weiliang too...todae all go Bugis tgt all fell sick tgt...the culprit?Cai Xiang!!!
he aldry sick for abt 2 days le...then pass pass pass jiu all hav le. He's bugged.

Bought a bermudas with Cai Xiang at Bugis street. Tat idiot bought an xtra tee. Then we went to hav our dinner then walked back to Bugis Junction to buy Cai Xiang de shoes.I oso wan buy de but the design nt nice so jiu bye bye. travelled back to Panjang Plaza to hunt for shoes of my taste but in the end the design is my taste but the price is not so bye bye again lorh. Sadded siol. Nan de i wan shop leh.ended up buying nth but a pair of bermudas.

Then jiu homed.The End.

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Ytd de work very sian...so many ppl luh.I was runner.but donno who keep come kpo took the orders away and don even knw hw to cross out the order chits.hai wo jitao confused.nt only i confused the chefs were confused too lorh.nbcb...


Cai Xiang was ticked of by mii cos he called back and ask mii help him punch card.but he shld knw we are busy and he could simply call our manager.He will help CaiXiang sign his punch card de leh.Then i work dao fucking pek cek.felt lik whacking ppl at tat point of time.

Aftr work called Weiliang.They at lanlab so i went over find them.played pool till 3am.Homed aftr tat.


Recieved a heart breaking news! She gave up le.She no longer have feelings for mii le. FUCK! I hope tis is jus a dream!

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Sibei sian...i cant go out cos im working ltr.lik sian luh.damn it. I wanna go town with Sebes they all!!damn the fucking job of mine.ARHHHHH!!

Recieved information tat she may be miting Sbester ltr on at town with her cous. I wanna go leh.damn it!

Ytd saw her at WM with her cous. all i could see was her backview which reminded mii of her leaving mii.the feeling sucked.



走了的爱不再回来...想念你的心不会更改....I said it, I meant it.

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Todae boring luh...went to watch movie <> lik lame lorh...the movie was okok...then went to CSC played pool...oso sian de leh...wish she was beside mii..hahas...im thinking too much liaos..nvm,anyway...Sent Fionn down to the busstop with Adrian. Slacked awhile at the lift lobby...


Then...

Recieved a call frm Yi Xian's mother...wtf..he ran away frm hm again!!!tis meant trouble.Therefore i was distracted during pool.Called Irene lao jie.then told her abt Yi Xian.We can create a CSI movie liaos..a disappearing teenager.

We jus hope tat we would find him soon bfr the police does.We were worried tat he may be charged with probation. Tat idiotic guy donno wats he thinking...willl be giving him a good scolding asap.rite aftr we found him.tat idiot.

God! 1/5 of my pay gone!!! cui lorh...i tot of saving money but in the end i spent alot.todae only first day leh...hw to survive!?











氧气 by 卢学叡

沈入越来越深的海底 我开始想念你

跌进越来越冷的爱里 我快不能呼吸

人活著赖著一口氧气 氧气就是你

我好孤寂 我想要你

沈入越来越深的海里 我开始想念你

跌进越来越冷的爱里 我快不能呼吸

人活著赖著一口氧气 氧气就是你

我好孤寂 我想要你

如果你爱我 你会来找我


你会知道我 快不能活


如果你爱我 你会来救我


空气很稀薄 因为寂寞

沈入越来越深的海底 我开始想念你

跌进越来越冷的爱里 我快不能呼吸

人活著赖著一口氧气 氧气就是你

我好孤寂 我想要你

[02:28.96]

沈入越来越深的海底 我开始想念你

跌进越来越冷的爱里 我快不能呼吸

人活著赖著一口氧气 氧气就是你

我好孤寂 我想要你

如果你爱我 你会来找我


你会知道我 快不能活


如果你爱我 你会来救我


空气很稀薄 因为寂寞

(口白)

(沈入越来越深的海底)
(我开始想念你)

(跌进越来越冷的爱里)

(我快不能呼吸)

人活著赖著一口氧气 氧气就是你

我好孤寂 我想要你

Tis song tells my feelings nw.

wished by Javin * 9:54 PM

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Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Tis morning went over Cai Xiang hse. slacked...waited for Adrian n Chee Pei to come over. Then we watch Cai Xiang play his HON n Audition...lik child.hahas....then we went over to batok camped outside to wait for her to walk pass...im useless rite?lik a stalker....do i hav a choice?i love her too much to giv her up n she wun even wans to let mii knw shes doing well alright. SHAGGG!!!


She jus walked pass mii lik a shadow.

Adrian tat monkey donno wat is wrong with his mind go shout her name. i knw she mus be pissed of..haix....but the damage is done le..so wat to do??Aftr tat Irene jie called mii..she ask mii go Bukit View Pri to fetch her nephew Vason for her...Vason tis name lik kooolllllllll...lols.he quite talkative luh...keep saying he going to leav mii tis old man there he wanna run home. I told him no,ltr he fall dwn i will kena scolding de...he guai lan mii leh.he said "nvm is euu gt scolding nt mii" WAHHHH damn guai lan luh...then went WM again to mit Sbester they all...I was told she was at MOS with Amanda n frends...hope tat fucker nt there luh...but in the end Cai Xiang told mii he there...i was lik angry lorh. But wat can i do? puinch him?tis will piss her off even more i think. However...still went over to check it out...but they were gone.Sadded for mii..FATED!!lols.




Aftr WM went CSC play pool...play played played-ed then close table...$26 aftr discount.still expensive...nvm....went toilet....then aftr some debating..we went for bowling!!Hahas...Only mii n Sbester played...tat short legged freak tio owned by mii lik siao..but the last game he won mii by 1 point!!!

I remembered n regretted tat mii n her spent most of our time shopping and watching movies...we seldom do tis kind of activities...should have done it often.haix...too late


Aftr bowling took a pic with the guys.

Adrian looks funny..lik dead.

Went home...then nw blogging...sian..nth to do...mum nagging at mii for my room is messy...lazy to pack no mood....tml working turning in early liaos...byes

wished by Javin * 11:06 PM

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Im so weak...whenever i think of euu i jus lost control.i couldn't control my feelings.weak...weak is jus the word for mii..


Mayb i shld learn hw to give up.jus lik hw euu gave mii up.....the feeling of losing euu is insufferable.I believe I had enough le. My doors was once always opened for euu. But euu kept trying to close it again n again.


Im going to stop waiting i guess and hope euu could be happy with him...Good luck


Treat her well...



I will still love euu

wished by Javin * 12:55 AM

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Hey, thinking back abt our past was terrible...we keep having arguements and keep break patch break patch.euu very sian rite?
Actually i don lik break patch too..but seeing euu were willing to patch back with mii makes mii happy.Cos tis shows tat euu loved mii and doesn't bear to leave mii...unlike nw...haix....seeing the state we r in nw really makes mii feel depressed...

Have euu ever truthfully asked urself if euu hav no mistakes?Well...nobody is perfect....so i accepted it and i loved euu....frm the bottom of my heart...but do euu love mii frm the bottom of ur heart?im sure theres once bah...but nt nw i knew it.cos euu told mii very clearly tat nite when euu say euu wanna break up with mii...

Aftr much thinking,i only can reckon tat it was i who had the most mistakes...im the one tat caused tis relationship to break into pieces.Even if i say 'I love you' nw oso cannt turn the tables around cos the damage is done.Euu have deleted mii frm ur life.Seriously i donno the chance of euu seeing tis post but i only wanna make my feelings clear.Even though i already predicted the future le...

If euu chose things to go tis way.I shall respect ur decision n wish euu the best.Pls let mii knw ur feelings too...even if theres none.




祝你，找到一个比我更爱你的人

wished by Javin * 12:32 AM

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Monday, January 04, 2010

First day of sch sux man...its lik woooohoooo boring....first miting Cai Xiang at 7.30 at bus stop de but guess wat...he came at 8..then our lesson starts at???oso 8....diaos. Ended up miting Adrian outside sch de bus stop...went to the provision shop...Adrian buy cig...i buy drink. Then proceed to blk 36 smoke...aftr tat jiu go in sch...lik so long nvr come back liao luh...but i totally don miss tis place...hahas...

Went to locker to tak my ETech de book then go up to classroom sit dwn...then start chatting liaos...watever Mr Chew is teaching nobdy cares...hahas...poor man...but in the end still gt listen luh...i potential A student leh...joking...my 1st semester de GPA only 1.118  lols!!!

Did several number of questions...well i knew hw to do it leh...surprised myself...surprised Jun Fu...surprised Mr Chew..zai man..hahas...


Break...
Saw Wee Kiat and his frends walking in to sch..called him chatted awhile then went back to class as break is over.


Lesson begins again...blah blah blah...flux..SI unit(Henry(H)) again...then at around 11+..Wee Kiat called mii...he say he release liaos...wtf he only came sch for an hr or so leh...then i continue to listen to watever Mr Chew is saying..then jiu go hm liaos...


Aftr sch...

Went to the ATM machine outside sch to withdraw money..then cabbed hm...bathed...went to bank to apply for my master card :}  then cabbed dwn to Hillgrove Sec there mit Weiliang,Sbester and Chee Pei.

Weiliang jitao suan mii "Eh! study arh?" wah he jitao made mii *%(&@*%!*%&^ luh...then went outside Hillgrove Sec wait for them to release.I was seriously hoping to see her...i missed her so much luh...

(Ex)Baby gurl, I MISSED EUU SO MUCH!!!BUT IM LIK DUST IN THE AIR TO EUU...

At first we disturbed some frends we knw frm Hillgrove Sec...then.....OMG!!! She came out...she walked directly bfr mii...nbut lik nt seeing mii...lik im nt even there...my heart broke at tat instant! My feelings did a failed bunjee jump which landed hard at the bottom of the valley.

Then went Westmall with Weiliang and Sbester...Chee Pei went off with his gf. Asked Amanda where they are.She said pastamania...So my brothers decided to back mii up...they pei mii go pastamania for lunch...THANKS BROs! they let mii hav the chance to see her back view.i alrdy thank god tat i could even see her back view.But hearing her voice is lik music to my ears luh....but my feelings very heavy...izzit cos Zhi Hao is beside her?He better watch out man.Don't ever let mii see him at Timah.

Aftr lunch watched 'BODYGUARDS AND ASSASINS' with Weiliang n Sbester. Fell aslp half-way..mayb due to the tiring working hours n cos i din slp well for tis past months. Aftr movie went strolling around the mall. I wanna buy Nitendo NDS(I)...but lik ex. So mayb next time.

Walked frm Westmall to interchange then walked till the end n turn back walked to CSC...nth to do there...so walked around...seated around...fooled around...joked around.too many around. Walked back to WM...Jin Kang came to look for mii to return mii money..though he nvr paid mii all but i still appreciates it. Then had dinner...jiu dispersed.Bused home...




P.S: 一颗心属于一个人,在爱情里找不到公平,爱的深 伤的深.
       我的心 只想属于你 把它握在怀里 让他感觉你的心跳 感觉温暖.


Venice Pee Xue Ying !!! 我是真的真的很喜欢你!!!我真的真得很不想和你分开!!!

wished by Javin * 11:48 PM

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Sunday, January 03, 2010

Todae went out with Long Legs(Weiliang) and Short Legs(Sbester)....met at Lanlab....played DOTA...tio own by Long Legs(Weiliang).then played pool.At first tio own by Long Legs(Weiliang) then aftr tat awhile ltr went to mit Skinny Legs(Alphaeus) then go over to al-meen there see wanna eat wat for dinner.then in the end tat stupid Short Legs(Sbester) suggested to go into tis stupid retaurant n eat in the end spent $30 on the stupid foods...A plate of Fried rice(Large and we steng), Pork Ribs(M),3 cups of super small de Wheat grass drink ($2.50 per cup)..
wet towels ( 20 cents each leh...)_|_

Then went shop n save to buy a tub of ice cream...Both legs wan de...then went back lanlab find wen yao...then slack awhile while the legs eat their ice cream(Raspberry de...lik gays...hahas). The stupid Raymond left for Song kah le....then we played pool lorh...Fat legs(CheePei)came to find us...he keep talking to his gf on the phone siol...lik sian luh...


Aftr half n hr...

All Dispersed...the SSL Legs (Alphaeus,Sbester,Weiliang) took the opportunity when Fat Legs(CheePei) nvr noticed took a cab home.they pangseh Fat Legs(CheePei) siol...he called mii complain...all i could do was lols :}    hope he can find his way home bah...lols.





PS:   Venice Pee Xue Ying, Do euu knw im still waiting for euu?

wished by Javin * 3:40 AM

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Haix...suddenly recalled the past.abt mii n her de past.


Pathetic mii...seriously im felt so sad.





100308 0213 we gt tgt we made a promise to b tgt forever.but in the end shes the one tat broke the promise.



Thinking back of hw we met.Its a coincedence i reckon. We gt to each other at Batok MRT.Tats the first time we spoke to each other, she was in a orange tee with skinny. Tat day i was waiting for Sebes they all come westmall.By chance, we met each other.She smiled at mii, i was attracted to her. i donno y. Aftr ttat i hav been thinking of her everyday.Until nw im still thinking of her. I remembered i love loved her more than i loved myself. It turns out to be a nightmare. But a beautiful one.



But to her im jus a nobdy.im jus a stranger she met.im jus a short story frm her life.





Finally, somethings i hope she would b able to see.















Seriously,I regretted letting euu go in the first place. Then sorry for my past mistakes which made euu angry or sad.



Lastly, Hope euu found someone whom loves euu more then i do. I Loved You

wished by Javin * 2:48 AM

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Tis is the first post of tis blog.



Y i open tis blog i oso donno de :} but i jiu shi wan open...lols

Venice Pee!!!When will euu come back to mii?

wished by Javin * 2:47 AM

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Let it Be

Hoping euu will come back to mii one day,
If nt pls promise mii euu will be happy,
Find a guy more suitable,
Hope he could treat euu well,
Hope he will be the one...
who wants to show euu off to the world when euu are in sweats,
who holds ur hand in front of his friends,
who thinks euu r just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding euu of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have Euu...
The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...
Lastly,
Hopes he loves euu more than i DO.

Name: Javin Ang
Age: 18+
DOB: 04 May 1991 Sch: Dover ITE

PS: Waiting For Love To Come Back!

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